what the f*&%!!

I have always believed and trust this person completely..but to know that she betrayed that trust is sooo unbelievable...

If u dont like me just tell me to my face, bitch! dont be all sweet and laughs & smiles and pretend to understand when i opened up to you!

Is there any good people left in this world? no wonder we need more and more shrinks now...coz we cant open up to the person closest to us...the one person that we completely trust!

I thought she would treat me the way i treat her...with confidence etc. how gullible was I?

no wonder they say learn from others' mistakes coz you wont live long enough to make all of them.....hahaahhaha..now that saying does make sense.....blasted woman!! i curse u till the day u die!!

just drop dead!!

be careful what u wish for..

it may come true..hmm..i have to chant this mantra over and over in my head..

BE CAREFUL WHAT U WISH FOR..IT MAY COME TRUE ...AND YOU MAY NOT LIKE IT!

picture this - you'll be wishing for something good of course, unless u are a twisted human being to wish for something bad for yourself! you get what you want, but remember, every actions result in reactions, so you may not get the reactions that you wanted because for a simple reason that it is beyond your control!

so, assuming you get what i'm trying to say here, should we be wishing for anything, or shouldn't we? considering the unpredictable outcome? hmmm...how much should you wish for then - to minimise the risk of getting the reactions that is unfavourable to you?

when they came out with this saying why didn't they say how much care should you exercise when making a wish?

hmmm..complicated huh?

don't worry about all this - just some crap brain exercise i'm doing here...

the one thing i'm not good at

WAITING!

That's it..i hate to be kept waiting..good news bad news just let me have it..it's better than no news at all..agreed?
since it's not up to me then wait i shall...bencinye!

when the going gets tough..

i would say that was by far the most difficult challenge i had in my 30++ years of life..and am glad that it is now over..
when i say the most difficult..i really mean it! i couldn't stop thinking about it for almost a week, pondering over my decision - was it the right one? or was i jumping the gun, OTT? but in the end I came to decide that i did what i had to do, my concience is clear and just persevere..
and i believe GOD is with me in this..Alhamdulillah! Allah the Almighty!
am so glad it's over, at least it's not constantly in my mind now...i have moved on....

@!$%^&^&^

today is a very trying day for me!



it starts right at the beginning..i forgot my notebook..only realised it when i reached the office in bandar utama...supposed to have a briefing session with the staff..the speaker turned up late..i couldnt contact her cause her number is in the diary which was in the backpack which i forgot..arrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh



i had to register myself at the security counter before entering the building, left my phone on the counter there.....went up to 18th floor, couldnt go thru the door, tried to call the colleague inside...whammm....couldnt find my phone!!!!!!



rushed down to concourse area...retrieve the phoen from the security guard....went back up....waited......



then back to the other office.....sent out a reminder email...somebody get offended by my email...yada yada yada....

so what? suck it up!



left office...feeling like crap..TGIF..



i'm not gonna let these series of events ruin my weekend!!!! i'm so gonna enjoy it!!



till monday....i'm just gonna be in the state of oblivion, in the mean time............

i'm in love!!

look at him...gorgeous is an understatement! I'm so in love with him...hmmmmm....

went to watch wolverine - X-Men Origins and loved it! love him! well i could be biased there.. :)

I just watched Australia 2 days back - and I loved it! the drover was yummy! :) and the accent - you get goosebumps all over your skin! hehehhe...there, I am exaggerating again!

i still love him...lalalala......

Holiday!!

Just came back from a one and dying to go for another... :) not sure whether it's a disease or just a fetish - but i do love going on holiday...a lot!!! hahhahha...

wished I had tonnes of money, so i can take off anytime I want, not having to think of where to get the money from...sigh...wishing is not gonna make it happen..

but I think the competition between the 2 airlines are very good for me soul..the price is really2 low! now I don't have to wait for MATTA fair to get good bargains..yippidee!

Keep it up you both!

taaa - have to go search for that cheap tickets!!

it's the time of the year again...

e-filing....arrghhhhh...i am dragging my feet to get this done..closing date is on the 30th of this month! i need a little pick me up lah....erghhhh.....HELP!



things have been pretty slow at work..another dread..i feel like i am stuck in a rut and just going with the flow...frankly this is like a normal feeling year in year out. i wonder how some people stay motivated or "engaged" (the in-jargon these days in HR language) in their line of work? well..use whatever fancy word you might it still means the same rite? motivated, engaged what's the different? the word ENGAGEMENT according to some expensive, fancy consultants definition, means how you as an employee think, feel and act for the company that you work for. so, if you are proud employee of the company you work for and willing to die for the company that means you are an "engaged employee".



how i know this? hehehe..i used to do this job for one of the company that i worked for in not so distant past! not as the con-sultant but as one of the project member...it was quite fun! i think that is my niche...working on projects, clear deadlines, timelines and the sense of achievement once the project is done-successfully of course...urrghh...to feel the adrenaline rush again! i miss that feelings.



this day to day routine is just killing me! i think i'm gonna be brain dead soon- due to lack of activities...hahhahah....just the other day i missed the turning that i was supposed to take, had to make a u-turn to go back home. and that was my normal route!! am i losing it? i think i was thinking of the "nothingness" in my work life at the moment lah.....ohh please i need some excitement in my work!



i know..i know..your life is what you make of it....but it's easier said than done! some people may say i am an ungrateful b****. i have a great job, not so bad pay and still complaining! most people would kill to be in my shoes!! yeah i know who...hahahahah..but i guess being a mere mortal..you are never happy with what you have....well you may be content with it for a while, then you grow tired of it and you crave for more....agree??? so, when is enough is enough?



and tomorrow is only Wednesday..wish Friday would come sooner...

takes my breath away.....

everytime i look at these pictures they take my breath away...i was looking at my holiday picture collections because there is a contest i plan to take part in..hopefully boleh menang holiday lagi... :)..when it comes to contest /lucky draw sad to say i was never lucky...however during the company annual dinner recently my name came up for one of the lucky draw prizes! maybe lady luck will be on my side again..who knows? anyway, there's always no harm trying!! at least i'll need to use my brain a little to come out with the wittiest caption! hehehehe...BUT I REALLY WANT TO WIN!! Holiday gateaway woo....imagine going on a free holiday....HEAVEN!

our trip to cambodia

These were taken during our recent trip to Phnom Penh. it was a spur of the moment thing - the trip. i was feeling low, MAS came out with a promotion. So, i just booked the ticket to PP and the rest was history.

The silks were beautiful and can cost an arm and a leg...and i hate the fact that they use USD there. makes everything more expensive. Even a ride in tuk-tuk costs $3 to one place. cutthroat!

I researched the place before going there -i always do whenever i accidently booked a ticket or i feel like going somewhere :). And still i was surprised to have to pay $25 per person at the airport upon returning! errghhhh....and they have posters all over their airport that says "help the development of our people or country" or something like that.....CRAP! hampeh betui.....

finally...

Hey! i finally decided to have one...blog that is! :)

reason being, i have too much time on my hand? hahhahah...yeah, rite! anyways, i always love to write, so, maybe now it's time to do it...let's see how long this lasts..